My husband told me he want's a divorce. I just dont know how elese to say it. We have had a rocky marriage, for most of it. There is no arguing, no passion at all really. But we have built a life together, and have 2 beautiful, beautiful boys. 10 & 8 yrs young. I don't know whats going to happen or where God is going with this, I have to believe he has a plan jeremiah 29:11. But I am sad, angry, confused and torn. I am a stay at home mom with fybromyalgia, no degrees, just retail experience. I want God to tell me what to do, and how to do it, and I'm so mad that he isn't specific. I also want to curl up in my bed and cry. I had to come to study today, I knew God wanted me there, and since I cried so darn much, I felt I needed to let you all know why. Debbie F
Sweetheart, if you can, go curl and go cry. Stay within the shelter of His wings. Your Safe Refuge is still on His Throne. Your sisters are praying. Love you.
Oops -posted earlier today in the wrong place - I'm moving it over here now _____________
OK here goes - I'm conversing, joining the conversation. Thanks Cathie for a fantastic?, difficult?, thought provoking? - I'm not sure exactly how to describe it but I do know what happened in my own heart.
It's like there were two streams of thought in my heart - what you were saying and what the Spirit was saying to me at the same time inside of me.
Not sure I will explain this well but when we talked about "what do you know about Jesus and what difference has he made in your life" I was just flooded with all these thoughts of what a huge difference he makes - the one idea that stuck out was that He has changed me from the person that I was without Him (the part of me that I don't like, maybe I should say the person I loathe being, with all my weaknesses, wrong tendencies, bad attitudes, hateful ways etc) into a person that is "holy, blameless and above reproach" in Him. This is such a life changing thing He has done for me.
The sad thing is that I often fall back into my old ways and then need to confess and go back to Him and His mercy.
While I was thinking about that I realized how painful it is for me to be that first person who I can't stand and what a relief it is to know that in Him I am whiter than snow. This brought tears of joy.
Ok - there is more. While I was listening and taking in everything you were saying the Holy Spirit all of a sudden asked me to do something that I have known for years I should do but did not want to do - I did not want to face it and own up to my failing. At that moment He gave me a overwelming love for the situation I had to deal with and I knew at that moment that I would be able to be obedient and do what He said with Him helping me.
To make a long story short I was able to do what I was asked and I did not give in to those thoughts suggesting I put it off or that it did not matter. What a relief to be able to go to bed tonight knowing I don't have to think about this any more and that it won't be eating at me. Thanks to the Lord for His help and his promptings - He wants the best for us
Debbie, thank you so much for sharing your heartache with us so that we may pray for you and lift you up before our almighty Father! Know that I am thinking about you, praying for you, sending you love... xoxoxo
Go Sally, Go!!!! What an amazing feat! It is just so stunning what we can accomplish in the loving embrace of our Father! I pray that God will continue to lay to rest the old within you and grow you closer and closer to Christ's image each day! xo
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My husband told me he want's a divorce. I just dont know how elese to say it. We have had a rocky marriage, for most of it. There is no arguing, no passion at all really. But we have built a life together, and have 2 beautiful, beautiful boys. 10 & 8 yrs young. I don't know whats going to happen or where God is going with this, I have to believe he has a plan jeremiah 29:11. But I am sad, angry, confused and torn. I am a stay at home mom with fybromyalgia, no degrees, just retail experience. I want God to tell me what to do, and how to do it, and I'm so mad that he isn't specific. I also want to curl up in my bed and cry.
I had to come to study today, I knew God wanted me there, and since I cried so darn much, I felt I needed to let you all know why.
Debbie F
Oh Debbie! How heartbreaking! Love you and praying for you. Thank you for telling us. If I can support you in any way, I would love to.
Sweetheart, if you can, go curl and go cry. Stay within the shelter of His wings. Your Safe Refuge is still on His Throne. Your sisters are praying. Love you.
Oops -posted earlier today in the wrong place - I'm moving it over here now
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OK here goes - I'm conversing, joining the conversation. Thanks Cathie for a fantastic?, difficult?, thought provoking? - I'm not sure exactly how to describe it but I do know what happened in my own heart.
It's like there were two streams of thought in my heart - what you were saying and what the Spirit was saying to me at the same time inside of me.
Not sure I will explain this well but when we talked about "what do you know about Jesus and what difference has he made in your life" I was just flooded with all these thoughts of what a huge difference he makes - the one idea that stuck out was that He has changed me from the person that I was without Him (the part of me that I don't like, maybe I should say the person I loathe being, with all my weaknesses, wrong tendencies, bad attitudes, hateful ways etc) into a person that is "holy, blameless and above reproach" in Him. This is such a life changing thing He has done for me.
The sad thing is that I often fall back into my old ways and then need to confess and go back to Him and His mercy.
While I was thinking about that I realized how painful it is for me to be that first person who I can't stand and what a relief it is to know that in Him I am whiter than snow. This brought tears of joy.
Ok - there is more. While I was listening and taking in everything you were saying the Holy Spirit all of a sudden asked me to do something that I have known for years I should do but did not want to do - I did not want to face it and own up to my failing. At that moment He gave me a overwelming love for the situation I had to deal with and I knew at that moment that I would be able to be obedient and do what He said with Him helping me.
To make a long story short I was able to do what I was asked and I did not give in to those thoughts suggesting I put it off or that it did not matter. What a relief to be able to go to bed tonight knowing I don't have to think about this any more and that it won't be eating at me. Thanks to the Lord for His help and his promptings - He wants the best for us
Debbie, thank you so much for sharing your heartache with us so that we may pray for you and lift you up before our almighty Father! Know that I am thinking about you, praying for you, sending you love... xoxoxo
Go Sally, Go!!!! What an amazing feat! It is just so stunning what we can accomplish in the loving embrace of our Father! I pray that God will continue to lay to rest the old within you and grow you closer and closer to Christ's image each day! xo
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